My Post Milano Blues

Hey Y'all, 

     Sorry that I have been a terrible blogger. I haven't blogged since Milano! That was wayyyy back in March! Oops. I have been busy ish haha. Since coming back from Milan, I have been working hard looking for a job, as well as turning 24. It was a busy summer season for weddings. I will blog about that in another post as I got to travel too two different countries for two beautiful weddings! (Watch this space). 

A gift from some of the teachers I worked with in Italy.

On my last day I got the biggest tub of ice cream possible. I have no regrets.

After spending a couple of months in Milan, I couldn't wait to come home to see my beanies.

When I came back and recovered from my three week cold, I started to train for the Race For Life. At first I intended to just walk it, but on the day I actually ran it and finished in 38 minutes. surprising myself at my speed!

Firstly, I want to let you all know that I am still determined to make my dreams come true. Working in Italy for two months really made me realise my goals, as you've read in my last post. In July I managed to get myself a job! Woohoo! (It only took three months after coming back from Italy for that too happen.) To be fair I was ill for practically the whole of April. (Literally got off the plane from Milan and was taken down by a horrid three week cold). It was like 20 degrees when I left Milan and when I landed in London it was like 10 degree less. That took a toll on my body. 

Anyway! It was fun dragging all my things across two metro lines and up and down a billion stairs until I got to Central Station, so I could catch the coach to the airport. (I was carrying a backpack, one big suitcase and one small carry on suitcase.) It was such fun, getting from A to B. No one asked to help, in fact they just made it worse and insisted in getting in my way. They clearly could see I was carrying an awful lot and thought 'Hey, let's just get in this ladies way, that will really make her day.' 

After safely making my way to the airport, I had time to kill and eventually made my way home. Where I spent three months searching for teaching assistant jobs, just so I can gain more experience in a school before I set myself on the task of doing the teacher training again. And yes I finally got one! 

I can't believe I've been in this job for almost 4 months! I feel like I've been here for ages. It's crazy how it's the end of term and Christmas day is in a few days! 

I am working in a lovely little two form entry infant school, where staff are lovely and so are the children. My little 4 to 5 years old are adorable and some are quite tall! One day they'll be tall than me. Anyway, this has definitely helped with my confidence, and development of teaching knowledge. I just need to finish my application, well I've finished writing my personal statement...which I was dragging my feet a little. This will be the fourth time that I will have written a personal statement...guess it will be 4th time lucky. (I hope.) I am now just waiting on my references! Ah it is out of my control which is scary.

So I guess, I want to leave this post by hopefully inspiring others to persevere, to keep trying to reach your goals, if you truly believe in it, you'll get there eventually. It may take longer than you first anticipated but with enough resilience, in time your dreams will come true.  

I will hopefully write another post before the new year. I will go on about my summer of weddings! Watch this space. :)

Merry Christmas.

Sam x

Ciao Milano!

Hey Guys,

So it is my last night here in Milan. The weather has been amazing over the weekend and the last couple of days. The sun has been shining I have been walking around the city without a coat or a scarf. Definitely cardigan weather. (Though I looked like a nutter to the Italians, who were still wearing coats)

It has been an experience here. There has been ups and downs, but overall it has been a good experiences and there has been more up than downs. 

Milan is beautiful, however I am not in love with the city. You know when you arrive at a city and it hits you, and you fall instantly in love...I got that with Rome & Venice, but not when I arrived in Milan. Sure there are some beautiful aspects, such as the Duomo and Parco Sempione. They always bring a smile on my face every time I see them. Especially when the sun is shining. 

So far Rome is definitely the top Italian city for me. I spent last Saturday in Venice which was simply not enough time. You need a lot longer to see this beautiful city built on water. I would definitely go back one day. As well as visiting the other Italian cities, such as Pisa, Tuscany, Naples, Sicily etc. Just for now, being in the North of Italy has been a good experience. I haven't fully enjoyed what Milan has to offer because, me being me, I have been a worry-guts. Stressing over lessons, observations and then debating about my ability as a teacher. It definitely hasn't been easy, but I feel that this experience was what I needed, to help me find my passion. To find the four words I used to believe in . Which is Love, Hope, Faith & Dream. And I have found it, I always had them, just I needed a reminder to hold onto what I believe in. To be determined and hold passion in everything I do. 

So the highlights of my time in Italy: 

1. Meeting an amazing bunch of people from all over the world. (Well Ireland, the UK, Australia & America.). It has been great getting to know them over the past month. They have all been so incredibly supportive, who know if I would have lasted this long without their support. Love you guys. 

(There never has been a moment where we have been all together, but here are some photos of some of us )

(Tigers!!!)

2. Spending a day in Venice. Though it wasn't particularly a nice day, Venice was still beautiful. I am more of a person who admires the outdoors, the beautiful buildings etc. That's probably why I love Rome so much!

(First Class Privileges) 

(Cos when in Venice, you buy a mask.)

(A glass of Prosecco & Black Ink Squid Spaghetti)

3. The kids, the teaching. Finding out how much passion I had for teaching. How much I enjoy teaching and spending my every waking hour working and planning the fun lesson for the kids. The children have been wonderful. So warm and welcoming, I will miss them. 

(Just a few of the kids monster drawings) 

(My Magic Potion & Monsters to help inspire the kids!)

Though I am not in love with the city, and it wouldn't be a city I would choose to come back to work in. I would come back to see the friends I have made here and find myself wondering around the beautiful Parco Sempione. 

Milan has some beautiful aspects, here are some photos.

(Santa Maria delle Grazie)

(Parco Sempione)

(Colonne di San Lorenzo) 

While I have been here, I have been staying with host families. This month I have been staying with a family, who have been wonderful. I also have had the opportunity to cook for them!

(My Host Dad being incredibly lovely and bought me these beautiful flowers called Mimosas - yes I know what you are thinking, the yummy Indian food, that's what I first thought when he told me the name haha! 

He bought them for me because it was Women's Day.)

(One of the best gelato places in Milano, Grom! Flavours were Lemon & Cream. I totally just wrote that in Italian and had to change it to English - the flavours that is.)

Just a couple of dishes that I have prepared for my host family. Egg Fried Rice & Stir- fry pasta. With curry powder, I add curry powder it a lot of things haha.)

Here are just some more photos of my last weekend with my wonderful and extremely supportive friends. We let our hair down (Or rather I did.) And relaxed and enjoyed each others company, singing our hearts out :) Definitely a Grammy - worthy performance. We would definitely make it to the X Factor finals, with our amazing choreography, our wide range of vocals and team spirit. Hell we would win it! 

(Got to love a bit of Whitney - I Wanna Dance With Somebody)

(Look at me dancing - Dancing Queen - Abba)

(I think you guys know what song this is haha) 

(Proud Mary!) 

(Me, Amy & James) 

(Part of the gang.)

Here are my souvenir shopping photos! Not really souvenirs but whatever haha. Lots of makeup from Sephora and Kiko! I went a tad crazy! I also have fallen in love with the Cruciani Bracelets! Pharrell Williams wears them....(Just saying) And probably some other celebrities. Of course the makeup and bracelets are not all for me (I wish!). But I am looking forward to using some of these products! Maybe I'll blog about some of these products! Though Sephora is french ( I think). 

Here is me being vain, taking a selfie, in perfect lighting to make my makeup look absolutely flawless - (it wasn't)...It's all about the lighting girls haha. Makeup - Mac Foundation, Sleek - Contouring Kit, Benefit - High Beam, Benetint & Benebalm, BarryM's - Mascara & Brow Kit) 

(At Cruciani, there are so many designs and colours to choose from! It is impossible to make a decision. I was there for ages. I bought the grey clover one in Venice and the turquoise infinity one in Milan. I hope to get one to represent Rome too, when I head back to that beautiful city. (Just not now...though it is tempting.) Oh and the Eddie bracelet...yeah that's from England...as you all know that I am Mrs Redmayne...(cough, cough I wish!)

Finally! This has been a pretty long post! But here are some photos of my goodbye cards from my classes. I love it when children do things like this. Put the effort to making you something special. 

I also have been creative and made an Easter basket & goodbye cards for my lovely children. I like making stuff like this, writing little notes. 

Anyway! You have made it to the end of the post! (Hooray!) There has been a lot of photos. I have really enjoyed my time here. I was hoping that by coming here I would figure out what to do with my life. And well it has happened. I now know what I want. It has always been there, I just needed to come to Italy to realise it. That I still had it in me, that I had the determination to strive for this goal. Something I didn't think I was (determined, that is).

I always saw myself as a pessimist person, that if something goes wrong, it's the end of the world. I am still like that. A personality trait like that takes time to shake off. But I have learnt, that I am brave and that I can be strong and determined. I can strive to meet my goals, to achieve my dreams. To be what I have worked so hard to be. 

After all that rambling, I think it is time to tell you all that, I have decided that I have it in me to go back and do my PGCE again. I want to be a teacher, it is a profession I love. I know it will be tough, I know it is long hours, I know I will have to deal with overbearing parents, I know I have to deal with the stress of no sleep and absolute manic when the Ofsted phone calls comes, I know there will be mountains and mountains of paperwork (in some cases unnecessary paperwork). But, this is what I am passionate about. A job that helps children, even if it is just a little. I am there to help people, to work with children, however snotty they are. This my dream, (as well as New York). 

It has taken some time, but I am finding myself again. I am finding myself doing the things I used to love, like blogging (and hopefully reading, when I get home). I found myself believing in all the things I used to hold on too. That everything most certainly happens for a reason.

Have Love, Have Hope, Have Faith And Always Dream. <3 

Ciao,

Sam x

P.S. I just want to wish the best of luck to my new friends, I wish you all the best in whatever you do. It has been wonderful meeting and getting to know you all. One day we will meet again :) Perhaps here in Milan :)